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Preamble

It is common to hear about the associations that have shaped the "cradle parisien", in terms of sometimes little praise. Rightly or wrongly, the ASB as the Caritig are views as hegemonic structures who wanted to get the hand on everything. I have known these associations shortly after their foundation and in varying degrees. I was involved at the ASB of the time of Tom Reucher and i hung around with the Caritig on rare occasion of meetings with Armand Hotimsky. My militancy as my entry into the field of research have led me to the observation of deficits on the terrain transidentitaire: history and memory. We find ourselves part of the legacy of the transgender cabaret culture with Bambi and Marie France, as with the needed rehabilitation of Ladybug whose role in the building of networks of between-aid has not been the least. For the history, everyone sees the start still with its own action forgetful sometimes of inheritance or the simple recognition of a aid, with an information or an accompaniment that will have been valuable to a person but as it deems not later than may be in the obsolescence of oblivion. Here is in the form of testimony, a way as another to contribute to mark my gratitude to those who preceded me and who have sent me their knowledge and their energies.

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Posters of the Existrans: 2001 to 2003

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Martian Chronicles: the Association of the syndrome of Benjamin from day to day

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That was the activity with the ASB from 1996 to 1999, to take the one that I have known? We will recount in the form of a modest chronic which will demonstrate that we are far from a model associative hegemonic.

Thursday: telephone support to the Gay and Lesbian Community Center of Paris for 14 hours to 18 hours. Note that the gays and lesbians were not always what were the trans, a little as to the Bi elsewhere. We should get a lot of people in questioning, sometimes in a grand idleness hardware and psychological. These people that certain-e-s trans would like to see psychiatriser because they would hurt the other trans integrated and would be "when even well ramshackle". It is to forget that we have received some of them in the same state! But accomplished since, they have forgotten… These "deglinguees" were of people cut off from their families and attached, without jobs and without immediate prospects. We receive also the girlfriends prostitutes, but it was more rare. The ASB had not the reputation of being welcoming to the transgender and prostitutes. Here the tree cover well the forest. A few opinion stigmatizing are managed to hide the friendships that were forged in the respect of the a-e-s and of the other. As thou was beautiful and benevolent Elsa. We cannot forget thee.

Not talking about the theoretical debate that was committed in a total silence to defeat the transsexual is contrary as medical concept. We are condemning already the pyramidal hierarchy between trans. Come-e-s of all horizons, or caller at the other end of the France of girlfriends and friends worried and sometimes frightened of what was happening to them, others are living with HIV, others are considering prostitution to pay for the care and operations. Sometimes landed students or apprentices filmmakers in poorly of topics. Without counting the journalists and the "men" of television. A few trans lover in hunting or on the loose did brief passages. In the bar of the CLG, a girlfriend was sometimes of its own, berating us gays and lesbians in their own premises… It has been catching up to the coup and force they ended up not to be offended.

Saturday: Day pasting stamps with Tom Reucher. We spent the afternoon to open the mail pieces, we distribute the mails and try to respond to the best with what we had as knowledge. I just started my trip, and found myself in comfort and consider the answers to someone like me, like all of us in this room. Heavy and Light Moods succession over the presentations of the projects, of the associative agenda. I remember very well from your faces Thibault, Vincent, Maud, Christelle, Tom and the other which I have sometimes forgotten the name. Forgive me.

Sunday: monthly meeting avenue Daumesnil. Thematic meetings sometimes as the day of the parents, or the annual grand meal. I was amazed to see that the people were crossing the whole of France just to meet other people like them, other trans in sum. Emerging Internet was not yet the multimedia tools and far was the web 2.0 which would forget that it would require a lot of elbow grease and a willingness to organize, to see, meet the space of only a few hours. They landed in Paris to live with other the time of a few hours.

The first was on the ends of twines and more than one would be surprised at the ridiculous budgets with which the machine was running.

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Martian Chronicles: out of breath

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Posters of the Existrans: 2004 to 2006

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Meetings and lobbying: in search of alliances. In the first place, in the center gay and lesbian community itself, of which the president of the time Alexis Meunier was a rare benevolence. The training center volunteers already included the trans. Sometimes we were involved in the editorial office at 3Keller, the magazine of the LMA. Interviews with the socialist Member Patrick Bloch, appointments to the union of the judiciary, travel abroad to meet with the Belgian surgeons, understand their techniques and assess the funding. Other meetings in the hexagon with doctors to train this database that Tom Reucher do garda never for him and many of whose trans have benefited. Appointments with the lawyers and the building of the first channels to bypass the courts and adverse referrals on favorable courts such as that of Chartres at the time or i was the fourth to get his change of civil status without expertise and in less than four months. Yes we intend, as it was rare and difficult. A or A for more than years past was a great victory. No record, no bragging, just the whisper of the relief.

Information and communications: of the identity to the Existrans. Create more than a associative bulletin that was the objective of the identity which I do not know yet how the name came to me. Perhaps the attendance of Maud-Yeuse which theorising from morning to evening, will you know… multiple meetings among Maud with Tom, Vincent, Thibault, Ionna, Myriam, Ripley, and the other. Mac Plus or SE30, on Xpress or Pagemaker, illustrations or full editorial? The identity is not to create a tool of communication and expression, approaching culture from different angles which would include our own visions of the world which ultimately was already "trans".

Participating in the meetings of the organization of the Gay Pride of 1998 on the theme of citizenship (already) we had been to the angels with the project on the little train for the children of lesbian and gay parents, but by the polemic depitees: "a mad "at the head of procession will it harm the words of order? We said that each group had its transvestite, its scapegoats. This we had all the more also been alleged that individuals detained that we are already working with the Zoo of Marie-hélène Bourcier. On its side the finding of our difficulties to exist within the gay and lesbian organizations at the time was driving Tom to the idea of a market that would be our. I worked on the communication aspect of this first Existrans, without participate for health reasons. But I was skeptical and I am not able to follow Tom later, the next too optimistic and not enough strategist. For my part, I was in the context of strengthening our alliances before considering this new form of visibility for the trans. On this point, I was wrong and Tom has done well to persevere and alea jacta is.

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Posters of the Existrans 2007 to 2009

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My memories are not so romantic. I must disabuse you. There are a lot of darkness in these images, the creepy sometimes, crises of tears and tired to consecutive meetings almost every night of the week. Explain again without ceased our condition, duty also fight on the inside against our own demons. These chronicles are the memories of a difficult work that is lacking in the memory trans which has still not of common history. Each group seems to have any invented as each trans replayed the gender change as a first and only time. The ASB, the Caritig and the PASTT have been animated by the pioneers who themselves have inherited has various degrees of the sociality outcome of the transgender cabaret (here it owes much to Ladybug), of the between-aid of prostitutes, acquired the previous associations of Marie Andre to Ladybug in passing by Marie-Ange attic. The trans no longer come alone in the world for a long time. They do not therefore arise in the artichokes in the arid highlands or frozen. The recognition of these achievements participated in me build as trans well before other trans and well after a lot of other. One last thought for the girls of the ABC, movement transvesti then transgender person regardless. They do not declare themselves association as "transgender", they told me yet accepted and collected for the time and say that I am strong enough to go to these associations emerging, down there in Paris. Thank You Gaby, Chantal and all other for giving me protected.

I say that someone in this world has the same for its action in Caritig and I share his joy as its nostalgia. It was not known in our well childish crêpages of updo to what point it was already important simply to exist and to put a not in front of the other.

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Espineira Karine

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Posters of the Existrans: 2010 to 2012